So here we are. It's two weeks after his birth and As overwhelmed as I feel, it's nothing com paired to the wholeness I feel. My entire life I have wanted a family. People who I could love and treat with unconditional love and in return receive the same. I can remember when Mick and first got married. We knew we wanted a family and that time was not on our side. We began the process of planning a family and it just didn't seem to happen. At the time Mick was working nights and when he was gone I would lie in bed at night and beg, plead, and cry out for a child. I had no idea why we weren't getting pregnant. Some how in m y mind I was having to pay for all the things that I had done in the past. All the sin that I willingly allowed into my life, all the decisions that I made that I knew better than....I was paying for falling and turning from the creator. Then out of the blue Emma, the wonderful creature that she is came into our lives. Now we have Jackson Boyd who I can not even express my feelings over is here and now I know, it's not what I do or don't do. It's His grace that supersedes all.